November 1st is the Cut-Off Date

I am heartbroken to announce that we did not make it in this time...AGAIN. I'm not sure why Troy and I have had such a long and difficult wait, but I know that there must be a reason. They referred babies from Oct. 26-Nov. 1st and we are Nov. 4th. So, who knows what will happen next month. I guess we'll have to wait and see.

The End of Another Month...

Well, here we are at the end of another month, so we can expect referrals any day now. I don't know what to anticipate, but I'm certainly hoping for more than two days like last month. I'm not going to get my hopes up to high, though. As I said in my last post, God has the ultimate plan, so what will be will be. Keep praying.

Sammi

I hear you God...

Ok, so with the devastating news last week that CCAA only did two days worth of referrals, I was really heartbroken. Being human, I began to second guess whether or not our daughter was actually in China. I began to question whether we were really listening to God speak to our hearts or whether we just thought this was what we were to do. So, as I went to bed I said a simple prayer. I prayed to God to send me a sign to let me know what we were supposed to do. I left it at that. I planned to use the next couple of days clearing my mind and repairing my heart from the discouraging news. Well, God spoke to me quickly. Out of the blue, over the next two days, I received a cute bath towel with a huge ladybug (a symbol of goodluck in the Chinese adoption community) on it, a board book about Chinese adoption titled, "I Love you Like Crazy Cakes," a book titled, "Are you my Mother," and a Little Golden Book about adoption titled, "A Blessing from Above." Ok God, you have my attention. I knew at that point that we were doing what God had planned for us to do. I also realized that good things come to those who wait. So, with that being said, we wait and try to wait patiently. I know that God has the perfect child chosen for Troy and I, and I know for certain that she is in China. We will go when God is ready for us to go. For those of you who came bearing gifts, we thank you for assisting God in answering our prayers. He works in mysterious ways!

Yet another disappointment!

Well, CCAA finally updated their website. They only did two days worth of referrals. They only made it to 10/26. I am in shock. This is the least amount of days they've ever referred before. My heart is broken. I just knew that this was our month. I'm not sure what to think from here. Things are even more up in the air than we originally thought. I'm so crushed. My spirit is low, so please pray that we receive good news soon. Thank you all for being so patient with both Troy and I. I know this whole long process is confusing to all of you, but trust us when we say that it is almost as confusing to us. The only difference is that we know the process inside and out, so we knew this long wait was a possibility.

Pray for Good News this week!

Well, as we prepare to go to bed on this Easter Sunday night, we hope and pray to wake up to good news tomorrow. I pray that the many rumors we've been hearing over this long weekend aren't true. I pray that referrals come this week and they did make it to us (11/04). We'll let you know something as soon as we know something. Please pray!

It's NOT looking good for 11/04

Well, rumors are beginning to surface on Rumor Queen, but they are all over the place as far as the cut off date. Some agencies have contacted clients stating that they received referrals through 10/26, which is only TWO DAYS!!! UGGHHHHHHHHHH! A few other agencies have reported six days worth of referrals, which still doesn't get to us. A Helping Hand was closed today in observance of Good Friday. They won't open again until Monday morning. So, I guess we'll have to wait and see what happens next week. As bad as my heart wants it, I just don't believe that we're in this time. I'm not sure why China did so few days, but it makes me physically ill. We hoped beyond hope that this was our month, but I guess God has a different plan for us. Please pray for God to give Troy and I patience and lots of it. As we get closer, the wait gets harder. I think it will be easier when we have her pictures and know that she's waiting. We know she's waiting for us now, but we still have a name without a face. I need patience. I need to be able to look at this in a positive way right now, because God knows I feel so many negative feelings. I have to remember that my plan is not God's plan. He holds that Master Plan. Karsynn simply isn't ready for us yet, as hard as that is to swallow. Until next week...

Updated Pics of my Niece, Shelby Elaine

Isn't she a cutie???

It's been awhile...

I found a pic of our first ultrasound, and I thought I'd attach it to the blog again. Enjoy!

I Wonder...

Here is a map of the Provinces in China. I wonder which Province Karsynn will come from? I'd love to hear your predictions. I predict she'll be from southern China, I'm going to say Guangxi. Let me know what you think.

The Anticipation is Killing Me!!!

Ok, so I stayed as busy as I could yesterday painting our family room downstairs. All day long, up the ladder, down the ladder, tape off baseboards, tape off ceiling... You get the picture. Karsynn was on my mind every single minute. I couldn't sleep at all last night. Was I just so tired from all the painting or was it something else? Here we are, it's 9:15 A.M. on Monday morning, our first day of Spring Break. Where am I? Sitting here glued to the computer hoping and praying for any little bit of news. Are we in? Did they make it to 11/4? AAHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I'm going crazy with anticipation. I'll keep you posted as to what happens today. Troy and I are praying for "THE phone call" today from A Helping Hand. If the call comes, then we'll drive to Lexington and pick up her pictures. I'll post them later today, that is if I can remember how to turn on the computer and log on. Please pray!!!!!!!

Rumors are "Flying"

Well, according to the latest rumors on Chinaadopttalk, AKA Rumor Queen, at least one agency believes that both 11/04 and 11/05 are in this batch of referrals. Again, this is simply an early rumor, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high. We should know something Monday, at least by Monday afternoon, if, in fact, referrals were mailed on Thursday, as reported. If not, then we may not hear anything until the end of the week??? After such a long wait, I'm afraid to believe that our time has come. The best thing is that we know that God has had the ultimate plan for our lives since the day we were born. I, for one, never believed that I'd ever be an adoptive mother traveling halfway around the world to pick up my first child, but here I am. We give God all the praise and honor that He so graciously deserves. All we can do now is pray and wait. Will we get "the call?" Tune in to find out...